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OK I am back again oh gosh I know this is heavy reading but its near done. As far as I know. I hope you readers don't mind I'm going to make this one short because

A) it has only just happened and I'm not OK with talking about it yet and
B) my mocks are this week and I need to study badly

Kate
Wow that felt like ripping off a band aid. Kate was amazing person so loyal, so kind, and always so happy but a few days before Christmas this year she hanged herself (OK tears have got to stop).

The Day I Was Told
I went into school without a worry in the world waiting by Shiv's locker, my best mate I'm my school, when she came in she didn't seem herself. I asked her whats up?? She asked me did I not get the text. I clearly didn't so of course I said what text?? She said three words I didn't believe till I saw two of my best friends in bits come straight to me for a hug Kate is dead.

It hit me I a big yellow school bus and I broke. The worsted thing about it my teachers wanted me to go through classes as usual. I cried all the way through English and I sit up the front so everyone saw. I ran out of history to get tissue and got in trouble but I didn't care. We had a mass and Assembly that day but I didn't care. I felt like why did she feel so alone?? Why couldn't she talk to me?? She was so young like 16?? I turned away from God that night I blamed him for not looking after her. I felt like it was all his fault. Now I have asked God to forgive me because I know I was looking for someone to blame and the truth is I should blame her for not looking for help.

The Day After 'Normal'
We got told when the funeral was but I couldn't bring myself to go. That day my business teacher gave out to me for being quite I told her to 'actually just stop and leave me alone' she didn't know me at all she didn't know how bad and horrible I felt so why give out?? I have never respected her since.


A poet once wrote "A person must always obey a certain judgement of their conscience"


A wise man once wrote "I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from his love, Death can't, and life can't. The angels can't, and the demons can't. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow, even the powers of hell can't keep God's love away. Whether we are high above the sky or in the deepest ocean, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate is from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord" Romans chapter 8 verse 38 and 39.