Sorry it has been so long I have joined my school magazine and I haven't had time to type this. I'm trying to think what to write about this week and it is not working any ideas ?
Guess Who
xoxo
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Ramblings
OK I'm dying here. I have a smoke but I am trying not to smoke it gosh I'm falling so I'm gonna ramble on to take it off my mind.
The thoughts of going back to school actually terrifies me. I'm going back to my old school because of money worries (its closer which means no bus fairs and its cheaper in general) so I'm kinda scared people won't accept me and be annoyed I came back so I have this on my mind along with the thought of my junior cert results coming out and I can promise you I have failed something I don't know what but I did.
Ugh I hate being a girl. oh and to make things worse my step dad and Mum are snooping around this very laptop trying to see what I'm writing so of course I am being sly and shimmying around so they can't see it. Not very well I might add ha ha.
Well I guess if I want the rants not to find out I'm writting what I'm writting I should go
Guess Who
xoxo
The thoughts of going back to school actually terrifies me. I'm going back to my old school because of money worries (its closer which means no bus fairs and its cheaper in general) so I'm kinda scared people won't accept me and be annoyed I came back so I have this on my mind along with the thought of my junior cert results coming out and I can promise you I have failed something I don't know what but I did.
Ugh I hate being a girl. oh and to make things worse my step dad and Mum are snooping around this very laptop trying to see what I'm writing so of course I am being sly and shimmying around so they can't see it. Not very well I might add ha ha.
Well I guess if I want the rants not to find out I'm writting what I'm writting I should go
Guess Who
xoxo
Monday, August 24, 2009
Smoking
So I was at a party last weekend (awesome party with a bonfire and tents). But I drank allot and I went back smoking! Bare in mind I was addicted for awhile in 1st year, and I've only had two, both after the party which I am proud to say was it! but none the less I have been so disappointed in my self since.
I think I went back cause I have been so distant from everyone lately, my friends, family, everyone and its kinda like relaxing or stress relieving or something. I actually really needed something I felt I was slipping or breaking. I dunno I guessed it just helped me find my way back....like I could breathe again which is kind of ironic....I guess the thing that doesn't help my lungs helped me breathe ha ha? Well I still don't feel fixed but it gave me strength to slowly get there. Time is all I need I think I've just become so depressed lately that I needed Hillary's to lift me outta my slump which it sorta did. So to everyone that was there and all who I hung out with aka...
Wez the complete legend of the night with his dance, yagerbombs, being so perfectly sweet, minding my freezing hands and being my pillow/blanket all night, and just being Wez in general.
Abby the lovely Abby so pretty with her Scottish accent, Hindu costume (without the dot), beers and being the only other girl there that I talked to when Hills was off socialising, you are amazing.
Andy and Bill (I think your names were) with their funny drunk stories, making fun of whatever I drank and the cocktails that so taste of alcohol its not even funny and you said "I can't taste it is there any drink in this" ha ha
a big thank you to you all for making it such a good night and taking me from my slump.
I think I went back cause I have been so distant from everyone lately, my friends, family, everyone and its kinda like relaxing or stress relieving or something. I actually really needed something I felt I was slipping or breaking. I dunno I guessed it just helped me find my way back....like I could breathe again which is kind of ironic....I guess the thing that doesn't help my lungs helped me breathe ha ha? Well I still don't feel fixed but it gave me strength to slowly get there. Time is all I need I think I've just become so depressed lately that I needed Hillary's to lift me outta my slump which it sorta did. So to everyone that was there and all who I hung out with aka...
Wez the complete legend of the night with his dance, yagerbombs, being so perfectly sweet, minding my freezing hands and being my pillow/blanket all night, and just being Wez in general.
Abby the lovely Abby so pretty with her Scottish accent, Hindu costume (without the dot), beers and being the only other girl there that I talked to when Hills was off socialising, you are amazing.
Andy and Bill (I think your names were) with their funny drunk stories, making fun of whatever I drank and the cocktails that so taste of alcohol its not even funny and you said "I can't taste it is there any drink in this" ha ha
a big thank you to you all for making it such a good night and taking me from my slump.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
first version - my song/poem
maybe when I'm not so broken
maybe when I'm not so hurt
maybe when I know what to do
love can fix love
maybe when I'm done with sleeping
maybe I could get some help
maybe when I'm done with eating
the fixing begins
fixing begins
fixing begins
you could be my angel in disguise
you could be my star up in the sky
you are be my forever and a day
I will alway be there
maybe when I'm not so hurt
maybe when I know what to do
love can fix love
maybe when I'm done with sleeping
maybe I could get some help
maybe when I'm done with eating
the fixing begins
fixing begins
fixing begins
you could be my angel in disguise
you could be my star up in the sky
you are be my forever and a day
I will alway be there
Monday, July 13, 2009
so I'm not that fussed
I have lately just stopped caring completely. It seems if you care you get hurt and in my opinion its not worth it in any way. I mean were all just waiting right?? We are here on earth just waiting for death so we can go to heaven to be in eternal happiness so whats the point in caring if we might not even be near the person you care for in heaven? These are just somethings that go through my head on a daily bases I know it sounds like I'm a crazy person but you have got to admit I have a point! There is something to think about!
xxx
Guess Who
xxx
Guess Who
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
decisions
What would you do if you were really sick, and I mean really sick to the point where your in pain and in and out of the hospital paying loads for each visit? What would you do to get better? Would you be willing to go into a machine that makes you feel like you are in a grave for ten minutes? I know I would!
I'm not going to name names here but I have learnt lately some people like to be able to complain and make people feel sorry for them. I personally don't mind if some one complains about having to go in the grave machine but if someone turns down the thing that can help them I don't think the have the....well...right to complain. Please tell me if I'm wrong cause I don't think I have the right to judge but in my opinion its not right.
Songs-
you me at six- save it for the bedroom
Jason Mraz- I'm yours
lostprophets- burn burn
verse-
Galations 2:20
book-
TWLIGHT!
Terry Pratchett- nation
I'm not going to name names here but I have learnt lately some people like to be able to complain and make people feel sorry for them. I personally don't mind if some one complains about having to go in the grave machine but if someone turns down the thing that can help them I don't think the have the....well...right to complain. Please tell me if I'm wrong cause I don't think I have the right to judge but in my opinion its not right.
Songs-
you me at six- save it for the bedroom
Jason Mraz- I'm yours
lostprophets- burn burn
verse-
Galations 2:20
book-
TWLIGHT!
Terry Pratchett- nation
Friday, March 20, 2009
I hate being a girl
Guys stink. I met a guy this week (honestly one of the sweetest guys ever!) He invited me to the cinema and we had the best time (though he paid for my cinema ticket which I felt bad about).
He texts me the next day and says something along the lines of "you are awesome and I really etc... but I won't see you for at least two weeks!" So I text back letting the poor guy off saying "Its grand if you don't like me that way its no big deal forget about it we can go our separate ways." but I seemingly was wrong! He spent awhile saying sorry and explained a little better.
He is actually one of the most popular guys round and is on the rugby , running and loads of sport and is always busy? From what I was told girls spread rumours about his ex-girlfriend. I don't want rumours about me being spread!
Now the whole school knows we went to the cinema and I get dirty looks everywhere I go (as it is an all girls school). I can't help but say to the girls "it not my fault I didn't know he was popular or as the girls put it 'fit' or 'hot'"
My friends are telling me not to take notice but its hard not to notice a bunch of girls giving you dirty looks and whispering! what should I do?
music choices-
(just music)pitter patter goes my heart - broken social scene
cause = time
lets talk about girls- undertones
when will my cheated heart- team9
got no love - knoks
fit but you know it - the streets
she moves in her own way- kooks
bible verse
classic john 3:16 haha
He texts me the next day and says something along the lines of "you are awesome and I really etc... but I won't see you for at least two weeks!" So I text back letting the poor guy off saying "Its grand if you don't like me that way its no big deal forget about it we can go our separate ways." but I seemingly was wrong! He spent awhile saying sorry and explained a little better.
He is actually one of the most popular guys round and is on the rugby , running and loads of sport and is always busy? From what I was told girls spread rumours about his ex-girlfriend. I don't want rumours about me being spread!
Now the whole school knows we went to the cinema and I get dirty looks everywhere I go (as it is an all girls school). I can't help but say to the girls "it not my fault I didn't know he was popular or as the girls put it 'fit' or 'hot'"
My friends are telling me not to take notice but its hard not to notice a bunch of girls giving you dirty looks and whispering! what should I do?
music choices-
(just music)pitter patter goes my heart - broken social scene
cause = time
lets talk about girls- undertones
when will my cheated heart- team9
got no love - knoks
fit but you know it - the streets
she moves in her own way- kooks
bible verse
classic john 3:16 haha
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